okay... right...

its been months and I'm still lazy to type things. But when i get something to write, I will write longer than what i expect. Just recent things that I want to consider and say out or else I will get full of boiling water! :D

I don't know what you think. but I seriously do not like people who talks without respect or people who do not talk in a nice way. I met alot of people who are like that. I just think that the way a person should talk when telling others to do things/when they want things to be done by other person should be in a respectful manner. Sometimes I really wish to tell the person off by saying "please speak or ask in a proper manner". Sometimes, I think the person do not really know that the way he/she speak is hurtful or very unrespectful. It doesn't matter if you are a low class or a high class, low pay or high pay, low rank or high rank, if you treat others like that, do not expect others to return you a favor.

The worst thing to expect is to order a person to do things with "whatever you have". I think that is so wrong. If things can be said in a nice way, why not? why have to make a big fuss out of it. I don't understand why. With people like this, I don't know how long to stay here. That's why I say, even with good pay, good friends, good environment, working with such people is a NONO to me. nahh. that's all...........

HAIHO MERRY OH!

Watch "the pianist" yesterday and was inspired by the show and of course by the songs played. And currently learning the main theme of the song. When playing I can imagine scenes from the show and i think its good, because more emotions can be put in the song.

Well, I passed the exam. Thank God, I did what I could, and given my 100%, because I know that, that day wasn't my usual playing. So alright. Now I get to choose grade 8 exam pieces.
It wasn't easy, a lot of the songs need a lot of finger techniques, QUECK! And the A part have about 4 sheets, B part more than 4, C... no need to say, i think its the hardest because I have yet to choose which one to play! HAHHA! Need to listen to listen to two discs, can't decide which I liked best.

Yup... Anyway working, I think I'm sick? Fatigue almost everyday, always falling asleep at 9 to 10pm. Cannot concentrate during sat. Quite tiring. Maybe the thinking makes me sleepy. Well... Politics always happen in any workplace, nevertheless, it does here too. Never like politics, but I always liked to be independent. Once I thought, is this really for me? But is there any job that I do not need any contact with workmates, just independently doing your work and pass it up to your supervisor at the end of the day? I don't think so! HAHHA.

That's the end. I wanna watch my TV! :D MISSED ALL OF IT!

Nervous

Oh dear,
Please pray for me people!
I'm having piano exam this friday...
Hope I can pass this exam! :S :S

Okay, some updates on my job.
I think I'm getting the hang of it..
So should be okay.. Can't wait for my pass! It looks for professional than the one I had now.

I want to sing a song! :D
I'm so tired.. Just want to sleep more!
I'm so envious!! My little sis don't have classes during YOG period! :((
Yet I have to work... Working is okay, just that I feel like taking a nap sometimes.

I seriously hate squeezing in the MRT, esp the morning!
Today, I met with one unpleasant incident. This man, with BO, took up quite a big space, kept on shaking when there are so many people on the train. *He is a bit inconsiderate to others* I was just beside him when I reached Novena, I said "excuse me" but he didn't even moved himself, just kept shaking :( I am quite angry, cause he was blocking the way! so I said even louder and just squeeze out when he didn't respond. I can't imagine when he was just in front of me, knowing that I need to get out, yet he didn't took up any actions. An overcrowding place doesn't really makes my day.

ok! I need to sleep now! so tiredd... and so lazy! :D

A new post.

I thought I could blog when I start this new job!
BUT I realised i'm more tired than before.
I fall asleep before 11pm without knowing.

So I can't blog as often.
About this new job, I think its okay..
though the workflow is abit confusing because different teachers teach differently.
HAHA. but i think i can get better soon. Just need to know how to handle different situations well!
And the work occupied my mind till I felt so lost in church today, like my mind floating off feeling that it does not feel like sunday. BUT I glad I went to church! cus i felt big bundle of stuff off me! :D:D

LA! I'm off for now! :D

A Fall

Have you ever saw a man fallen down deep such that it seems as though you can't save him/her at all...
How to save a person from stumbling if the person does not heed any advice of yours?

Just a thought that I find myself thinking over and over again.
"If a person falls into a very deep, a deeper hole that you would ever thought,
how do you save him/her from it?"
I have tried to give a hand, but rejections are always the answer.
Indeed, I know everything is in God's hands, but when will the person be saved from the deep hole?

Well... to the person:
When I look at your life, I thought; "are you going to continue to be like this?"
"How long do you intend to in that deep hole, or go even deeper?"
"Is previous lesson not graved, not strong enough to get you to wake up?"
I thought you would change for the better after that incident.
But why.. why do you continue? Can't you appreciate those who love you?
I don't understand, why don't you even bother to listen?
Faking a face in front of so many people, can you even do it?

I seriously don't know what to do with that person anymore.
I can't say not to care because I have to care.
But I'm really disappointed in you.
Maybe you are hooked up in it, but i'll be always praying for you.
Pray that one day, you would really wake up.

Oh man, sinful nature corrupts your heart and soul.

Well, sorry for the rant.
Just have to let it out.
LOVE JOLLY.

HAHAH!

Another one month post!
some updates:
1. I'm not working as a receptionist anymore.
So during this one week, I'm supposedly to concentrate on my piano exams.
I'm trying hard!

2. I have been clearing out stuffs from my room.

3. Currently Slacking!

4. I should be able to blog more often since I'll be home before 8? heh! :D

HMM....
I would be buying the book "the journals of Jim Elliot".
And soon! I'll be blogging about the books I have read.
I realised that I haven't been writing about my thoughts for devotion, so will consider doing so soon. HMMMMMM....

anyways, I changed my blog template.
I thought it was nice.
When I change my blog template, it means I'm REVIVED! :D:D (for a few months? or days? years, i hope) HAHH.

Did nothing today except to practice piano and staring at the screen for 24/7. My eyes are really tired and I'm going to wake up early for tmr lesson. SO.....
NEED A SLEEP people!

LOVES JOLLY! :D,

A thought.

I hate myself.
For being such an idiot,
for having a fake smile,
for not doing what I promised to do,
for being useless,
for not growing up,
for many many things in life.

I kept thinking about the same old thing.
For that pathetic 8 years of my life.
Back and forth, back and forth,
Prayed over and over again, but it never happens.
Promised to let go, but couldn't.
Tried to see things straight, but never once did.
It's just tormenting me.
When can it be stopped.
I wished I could stop it right here and right now.
Or just let it happen.

End.

Sufficient Grace.

Well, I'm reading on Psalms recently.
And I thought of using the SOAP method that was introduced to us during bible study.
I thought that was a good idea to read and study the bible at the same time.
And I had written about 5 entries, each a day was my goal.
I think the SOAP method was really good, makes me think deeper to a certain passage in the bible.

I'll talk about sufficient grace.
I'm sure all of us had experience GOD's wonderful grace for us in some point of time.
I'm always thankful to God for his grace that is sufficient, sometimes, even more than what I needed. How often do we thank God for what he has done, for his creation, for his loving kindness, for many many things? I always thank God, no matter where I am, whenever I feel like. I think its a good habit for all of us to be able to thank god, no matter what.

So a verse in the bible,
2 Corinthians 12:9,
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

Let us think and recap on God's grace upon us.
And I would like to introduce this song to you.
It speaks to me on God's grace, really.

LYRICS:

《恩典够用》
演唱：盛晓玫
词、曲：盛晓玫
专辑：脚步
旷野呼声收集 整理

停下来回头看一看，祂的恩典一路相伴
闭上眼用心去感觉，祂的爱从不曾离开
抬起头你将会发现，乌云背后还是有蓝天
张开手迎向 每一天，祂的恩典一定够用
你日子如何，力量也如何
他应许永远不会改变
要相信不论明天将如何，祂恩典一定够用
每一次跌倒， 站起来更刚强
每脚步走得更有力量
要相信不论明天将如何，祂恩典一定够用

停下来回头看一看，祂的恩典一路相伴
闭上眼用心去感觉，祂的爱从不曾离开
抬起头你将会发现，乌云背后还是有蓝天
张开手迎向 每一天，祂的恩典一定够用
你日子如何，力量也如何
他应许永远不会改变
要相信不论明天将如何，祂恩典一定够用
每一次跌倒， 站起来更刚强
每脚步走得更有力量
要相信不论明天将如何，祂恩典一定够用

你日子如何，力量也如何
他应许永远不会改变
要相信不论明天将如何，祂恩典一定够用
每一次跌倒，站起来更刚强
每脚步 走得更有力量
要相信不论明天将如何，祂恩典一定够用
要相信不论明天将如何，祂恩典一定够用

It's really true, the lyrics, it tells of how sufficient God's grace is for us.
When I read it, recalling and thinking back...
God, he never leave us no matter what. He is always there to lead and guide us through our lives. Sometimes when we fall, we do not know what to do, but with God, we are able to stand and become stronger in our lives and every walk, with God, nothing is impossible. Because we know that God faithfulness never fail. And I know how much blessings God has given to me even though there are many times where I betrayed him. He never leaves me. And also, do not worry about tomorrow, for God always provides.

Indeed I can say now, God, thank you, for your Grace is sufficient for me, what's more that I can ask from you?

LOVES! FROM JOLLY! :D

A new start

First of all,
I would to say sorry.
HAHA! I always have this urge to stop writing the blog and then start writing after a few months later.
What a bad habit of mine.

Well, I got to chance upon this blog of mine,
and I thought, "when did I write these entries? It doesn't looks as though it was ME who was writing this." I guess I wasn't a deep thinker last time. But now, as I look through the last few sharing QT entries, I am touched and impressed. So now, I decided, maybe I should continue this.
Its so wonderful!

LOVES! :D