I hate myself.
For being such an idiot,
for having a fake smile,
for not doing what I promised to do,
for being useless,
for not growing up,
for many many things in life.
I kept thinking about the same old thing.
For that pathetic 8 years of my life.
Back and forth, back and forth,
Prayed over and over again, but it never happens.
Promised to let go, but couldn't.
Tried to see things straight, but never once did.
It's just tormenting me.
When can it be stopped.
I wished I could stop it right here and right now.
Or just let it happen.
End.
