Hi! My Long Lost Friend...

Hello Sept 2012 going to Oct 2012!

It's about two years since my last post. Many things have changed, many words have said, many joys and laughter have passed. That's why I named this blog 'sherrs' reminiscence' two years ago which is exactly what I am doing right now. Many thoughts went through my mind as I read my previous blog and this blog. Many silly things I have done, many rubbish I have said. I even had an argument with a passerby who commented unreasonably on the post I have made in 2007. HAHA! Thinking about those crazy days, I really missed it, but I felt that I was really immature. oh dear. A sign of getting old?

2 years have passed and I am still working at the same place but with more responsibilities. And this job made me realised that how indifferent, scary and helpless a person can be. I am still that independent person who likes to do things on my own. I am not afraid to speak of my views which may have hurt certain people. I'm still that same old person, unable to care about other person's feelings because its simply tiring. Tired of those white lies and hypocrites. Well, is this the sign that I have slowly becoming a self centered person or sign of becoming inhuman? let me reflect myself and probably I will come up with an answer soon.

Okay, stop this depressing and negative thinking.

Other Updates:

I am studying part time degree and this is my second year. Thank God that I passed most of my exams.Trying to study for upcoming examinations, but I am still lazy as before. 'Never forget, laziness leads to a person's downfall.' My revision starts from tomorrow!

And...in order to focus on my studies, I have stopped my piano lessons after passing my grade 8 exam.

I'm starting to read up this book that I bought ' The Pilgrim's Progress '. Shall make an update once I finish reading the book. And more books to read, as I strive to improve my spiritual life, in and out.

Questions I asked myself today: What have I achieve till now? What am I going to do next?
I simply have no answer for that.

PS and note to self: I have not forget that I wanted a dog named jolly. And I have been holding it off since young. And now, I think I'm still not ready yet. Let me finish my studies first as having a dog requires a great commitment, time and money.

I will end here today and welcome back my long lost friend...

okay... right...

its been months and I'm still lazy to type things. But when i get something to write, I will write longer than what i expect. Just recent things that I want to consider and say out or else I will get full of boiling water! :D

I don't know what you think. but I seriously do not like people who talks without respect or people who do not talk in a nice way. I met alot of people who are like that. I just think that the way a person should talk when telling others to do things/when they want things to be done by other person should be in a respectful manner. Sometimes I really wish to tell the person off by saying "please speak or ask in a proper manner". Sometimes, I think the person do not really know that the way he/she speak is hurtful or very unrespectful. It doesn't matter if you are a low class or a high class, low pay or high pay, low rank or high rank, if you treat others like that, do not expect others to return you a favor.

The worst thing to expect is to order a person to do things with "whatever you have". I think that is so wrong. If things can be said in a nice way, why not? why have to make a big fuss out of it. I don't understand why. With people like this, I don't know how long to stay here. That's why I say, even with good pay, good friends, good environment, working with such people is a NONO to me. nahh. that's all...........

HAIHO MERRY OH!

Watch "the pianist" yesterday and was inspired by the show and of course by the songs played. And currently learning the main theme of the song. When playing I can imagine scenes from the show and i think its good, because more emotions can be put in the song.

Well, I passed the exam. Thank God, I did what I could, and given my 100%, because I know that, that day wasn't my usual playing. So alright. Now I get to choose grade 8 exam pieces.
It wasn't easy, a lot of the songs need a lot of finger techniques, QUECK! And the A part have about 4 sheets, B part more than 4, C... no need to say, i think its the hardest because I have yet to choose which one to play! HAHHA! Need to listen to listen to two discs, can't decide which I liked best.

Yup... Anyway working, I think I'm sick? Fatigue almost everyday, always falling asleep at 9 to 10pm. Cannot concentrate during sat. Quite tiring. Maybe the thinking makes me sleepy. Well... Politics always happen in any workplace, nevertheless, it does here too. Never like politics, but I always liked to be independent. Once I thought, is this really for me? But is there any job that I do not need any contact with workmates, just independently doing your work and pass it up to your supervisor at the end of the day? I don't think so! HAHHA.

That's the end. I wanna watch my TV! :D MISSED ALL OF IT!

Nervous

Oh dear,
Please pray for me people!
I'm having piano exam this friday...
Hope I can pass this exam! :S :S

Okay, some updates on my job.
I think I'm getting the hang of it..
So should be okay.. Can't wait for my pass! It looks for professional than the one I had now.

I want to sing a song! :D
I'm so tired.. Just want to sleep more!
I'm so envious!! My little sis don't have classes during YOG period! :((
Yet I have to work... Working is okay, just that I feel like taking a nap sometimes.

I seriously hate squeezing in the MRT, esp the morning!
Today, I met with one unpleasant incident. This man, with BO, took up quite a big space, kept on shaking when there are so many people on the train. *He is a bit inconsiderate to others* I was just beside him when I reached Novena, I said "excuse me" but he didn't even moved himself, just kept shaking :( I am quite angry, cause he was blocking the way! so I said even louder and just squeeze out when he didn't respond. I can't imagine when he was just in front of me, knowing that I need to get out, yet he didn't took up any actions. An overcrowding place doesn't really makes my day.

ok! I need to sleep now! so tiredd... and so lazy! :D

A new post.

I thought I could blog when I start this new job!
BUT I realised i'm more tired than before.
I fall asleep before 11pm without knowing.

So I can't blog as often.
About this new job, I think its okay..
though the workflow is abit confusing because different teachers teach differently.
HAHA. but i think i can get better soon. Just need to know how to handle different situations well!
And the work occupied my mind till I felt so lost in church today, like my mind floating off feeling that it does not feel like sunday. BUT I glad I went to church! cus i felt big bundle of stuff off me! :D:D

LA! I'm off for now! :D

A Fall

Have you ever saw a man fallen down deep such that it seems as though you can't save him/her at all...
How to save a person from stumbling if the person does not heed any advice of yours?

Just a thought that I find myself thinking over and over again.
"If a person falls into a very deep, a deeper hole that you would ever thought,
how do you save him/her from it?"
I have tried to give a hand, but rejections are always the answer.
Indeed, I know everything is in God's hands, but when will the person be saved from the deep hole?

Well... to the person:
When I look at your life, I thought; "are you going to continue to be like this?"
"How long do you intend to in that deep hole, or go even deeper?"
"Is previous lesson not graved, not strong enough to get you to wake up?"
I thought you would change for the better after that incident.
But why.. why do you continue? Can't you appreciate those who love you?
I don't understand, why don't you even bother to listen?
Faking a face in front of so many people, can you even do it?

I seriously don't know what to do with that person anymore.
I can't say not to care because I have to care.
But I'm really disappointed in you.
Maybe you are hooked up in it, but i'll be always praying for you.
Pray that one day, you would really wake up.

Oh man, sinful nature corrupts your heart and soul.

Well, sorry for the rant.
Just have to let it out.
LOVE JOLLY.

HAHAH!

Another one month post!
some updates:
1. I'm not working as a receptionist anymore.
So during this one week, I'm supposedly to concentrate on my piano exams.
I'm trying hard!

2. I have been clearing out stuffs from my room.

3. Currently Slacking!

4. I should be able to blog more often since I'll be home before 8? heh! :D

HMM....
I would be buying the book "the journals of Jim Elliot".
And soon! I'll be blogging about the books I have read.
I realised that I haven't been writing about my thoughts for devotion, so will consider doing so soon. HMMMMMM....

anyways, I changed my blog template.
I thought it was nice.
When I change my blog template, it means I'm REVIVED! :D:D (for a few months? or days? years, i hope) HAHH.

Did nothing today except to practice piano and staring at the screen for 24/7. My eyes are really tired and I'm going to wake up early for tmr lesson. SO.....
NEED A SLEEP people!

LOVES JOLLY! :D,

A thought.

I hate myself.
For being such an idiot,
for having a fake smile,
for not doing what I promised to do,
for being useless,
for not growing up,
for many many things in life.

I kept thinking about the same old thing.
For that pathetic 8 years of my life.
Back and forth, back and forth,
Prayed over and over again, but it never happens.
Promised to let go, but couldn't.
Tried to see things straight, but never once did.
It's just tormenting me.
When can it be stopped.
I wished I could stop it right here and right now.
Or just let it happen.

End.

Sufficient Grace.

Well, I'm reading on Psalms recently.
And I thought of using the SOAP method that was introduced to us during bible study.
I thought that was a good idea to read and study the bible at the same time.
And I had written about 5 entries, each a day was my goal.
I think the SOAP method was really good, makes me think deeper to a certain passage in the bible.

I'll talk about sufficient grace.
I'm sure all of us had experience GOD's wonderful grace for us in some point of time.
I'm always thankful to God for his grace that is sufficient, sometimes, even more than what I needed. How often do we thank God for what he has done, for his creation, for his loving kindness, for many many things? I always thank God, no matter where I am, whenever I feel like. I think its a good habit for all of us to be able to thank god, no matter what.

So a verse in the bible,
2 Corinthians 12:9,
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

Let us think and recap on God's grace upon us.
And I would like to introduce this song to you.
It speaks to me on God's grace, really.

LYRICS:

《恩典够用》
演唱：盛晓玫
词、曲：盛晓玫
专辑：脚步
旷野呼声收集 整理

停下来回头看一看，祂的恩典一路相伴
闭上眼用心去感觉，祂的爱从不曾离开
抬起头你将会发现，乌云背后还是有蓝天
张开手迎向 每一天，祂的恩典一定够用
你日子如何，力量也如何
他应许永远不会改变
要相信不论明天将如何，祂恩典一定够用
每一次跌倒， 站起来更刚强
每脚步走得更有力量
要相信不论明天将如何，祂恩典一定够用

停下来回头看一看，祂的恩典一路相伴
闭上眼用心去感觉，祂的爱从不曾离开
抬起头你将会发现，乌云背后还是有蓝天
张开手迎向 每一天，祂的恩典一定够用
你日子如何，力量也如何
他应许永远不会改变
要相信不论明天将如何，祂恩典一定够用
每一次跌倒， 站起来更刚强
每脚步走得更有力量
要相信不论明天将如何，祂恩典一定够用

你日子如何，力量也如何
他应许永远不会改变
要相信不论明天将如何，祂恩典一定够用
每一次跌倒，站起来更刚强
每脚步 走得更有力量
要相信不论明天将如何，祂恩典一定够用
要相信不论明天将如何，祂恩典一定够用

It's really true, the lyrics, it tells of how sufficient God's grace is for us.
When I read it, recalling and thinking back...
God, he never leave us no matter what. He is always there to lead and guide us through our lives. Sometimes when we fall, we do not know what to do, but with God, we are able to stand and become stronger in our lives and every walk, with God, nothing is impossible. Because we know that God faithfulness never fail. And I know how much blessings God has given to me even though there are many times where I betrayed him. He never leaves me. And also, do not worry about tomorrow, for God always provides.

Indeed I can say now, God, thank you, for your Grace is sufficient for me, what's more that I can ask from you?

LOVES! FROM JOLLY! :D

A new start

First of all,
I would to say sorry.
HAHA! I always have this urge to stop writing the blog and then start writing after a few months later.
What a bad habit of mine.

Well, I got to chance upon this blog of mine,
and I thought, "when did I write these entries? It doesn't looks as though it was ME who was writing this." I guess I wasn't a deep thinker last time. But now, as I look through the last few sharing QT entries, I am touched and impressed. So now, I decided, maybe I should continue this.
Its so wonderful!

LOVES! :D

Late

Sorry for not posting for about 6 days.

While i was reading some articles over the net,

I found one long article,

An abstract from the article,

http://www.wwcmagazine.org/1997/dropout.html

It's true. And I'm willing to admit it. I quit spending time with God. It's not true to say I wanted to be with Him but was undisciplined, or that I desired God's presence but didn't know what to do. I knew what to do to have a quiet time; I even possessed a small measure of discipline. I just didn't want to do it. Arrogant? You bet. Dangerous? Perhaps. A surprise to my Creator? I doubt it.

(My words: I think this true and it somehow applies to how we treated QT, I think most Christians know what was quiet time and what to do to have a quiet time. Many times we say we are lazy, undisciplined. But how exactly true are we? I was someone like that before too, I just didn't want to do it, if I want, I would do, no matter how lazy or how undisciplined I am. In the end, it is also a matter of choice, whether we want to do it or not.)

"Now, when I come to God, I'm not bound by duty. I ask the Lord to give me a desire for His Word, for Himself, for truth. And I began preaching the gospel to myself each day. Now I remind myself to trust in the merit of Christ as my only hope for blessings (Romans 4:7,8). I dwell daily on the fact that, because of Christ's redeeming work on the Cross, God's holy wrath is no longer directed at me (Romans 8:1). And I trust in His promise to continue His good work in me (Philippians 1:6). Repeating these truths daily keeps me from tripping on the performance snare again. And they give me a grateful heart. I try what John Owen suggested: ". . . [to] look to Christ as the one who bears the iniquity of [my] holy things, who adds incense to [my] prayers, gathers out all the weeds from [my] duties and makes them acceptable."

That's all.

I sinned today. Sorry.

thoughts 3

today I was really tired, so I won't be sharing on my QT.
I just give a question according to the QT
which is,
are usually pride leads to destruction and fall of man?

HAHHA, gotta sleep ! :D

thoughts day 2

today is a continuation of humility.

multiple blessings from God that I should be thankful for.

today i shall stop here because I am tired.

i'll write more on my thoughts tmr! :D

sorry people. today's been a long day for me.

real bad.

humility and pride

Today is on humility.

Being humble, can be a hard thing to do sometimes.

That's when you try to be humble, others said that you are being a hypocrite.

But today is about Humility Vs. Pride.

"You can take pleasure in your good qualities or achievements and still be humble. But when you act in a prideful, boastful, or arrogant way, you're not being humble. So enjoy what you like about yourself and what you do well, but make sure you do it with gratitude and humility, and not with pride."

I think its easy for humans to be prideful of their own achievements, and when they get too much of such compliments, they tend to be too proud of themselves and look down on others, well... being boastful. As it says, its okay to take pride in your own achievements but being arrogant and boastful about it would lead to sinful pride.

In example of humility on Paul.

Paul, a faithful servant of God set us an example of humility.

Instead of boasting on what he has done for christ, his service for Christ and his own hertiage,

he boast only about how much Christ has done for him and nothing else.

He is someone that I would like to learn from. To humble myself and not to be arrogant for my own achievements. Remember that it is God that helped me in many different ways, in ways that I do not even know of.

well, this is end of the QT sharing.

http://www.brandonweb.com/gbt/sermonpages/luke28.htm

thoughts

my left wrist hurts again while playing piano.

sometimes, I am afraid that one day, I may not be able to play piano again.

Things happened so quickly nowadays,

Just reading through things,

and read something really stuck my mind.

God promises.

Sometimes, it seems hard to imagine how would God fulfill his promises,

It may take 1 year, 2 years or much more and in this process, you start to wonder

"did God forget me and the promises?", or you wonder, "is God testing my patience?"

many times, when it comes to waiting, it's really the hardest thing to do.

but by faith, continue to trust that God will really fulfill his promise because he does.

I know he would.

and I should start doing my QT, sometimes, I think I might be drifting away.

I need to get back on my feet.

so I would post my QT thoughts from today.

BTW~ pasir ris white sands has this yoghurt fruzen.

who wants to go and eat with me?

HAHAH :D

bored

okay, sorry for not blogging for so long.
Just trying to get used to the new timetable and school life.
I guess I do not have much motivation in life and in school.

I don't see myself learning at all, its just like fulfilling my job, doing FMT, presentation just because I need to. Wondering why did I feel this way.
Did I got sick of school? I felt like I want to go high places and jump down, sort of bungee jump, I want to try Singapore's "similar" bungee jump.

Though its late right now, but I really thank all for the birthday wishes. Especially, my parents, for going out so late to buy swensens ice cream cake for me. And my MUM! for making me such a cute "pillow". It's cute and I'll upload the pictures next time.

I want to thank 90s too, who are a nice bunch of brothers and sisters. Thanking eunice for getting such nice bag, there's dog too. Love it.

Btw, I want to go cycling. Who cares to join me in this journey? :D
p.s.: can I really believe? :) I don't know, though I prayed, but should I continue or should I not? Maybe its a waste of time but I just don't know. Its frustrating. Is God asking to me to be patient? I hope so.

Thankful heart

I was really thankful on Sunday.
My wallet had 20 dollars left, and I decided that I would give an offering.
Just then, I asked myself, "oh, then how to go for the exhibition later? but.. an offering should be made with a willing heart.. never mind about the exhibition, can borrow from sis, I should give a portion of what I have to the lord for I feel that it is more important than whatever comes next."

So I gave my offering. Well, the ticket was $20 and now I have $18 left. Amazingly, when we reached there, this group of people are finding for people to fill up the places to 20 people to get discount of the tickets. And the last three people, which was us, filled up the space. And the ticket was $18, not more and not less.

Here, I realized, how God makes wonders, reminding me of one sharing from candy. That God always provides for our needs, he provides just enough, there is was just nice or more, but never less. No matter how poor we are, how we always complaint about not enough money, but it is always enough for us to live by. I ought to be really thankful.

And how true this verse is:
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat, or about your body, what you will wear. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing. Consider the ravens: the neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds!" ( Luke 12:22-24)

emm, about the dead sea scroll exhibition, will be on my next post.
Be prepared for a long post!

Without his cross

Without His Cross
By : Joseph M. Martin

Without His tears, there is no comfort
Without His death, there is no life
Without His blood, there is no pardon
Without His cross, there is no crown

Without His shame, there is no glory
Without His grief, there is no joy
Without His stripes, there is no healing
Without His cross, there is no crown

Lamb of God, who bring salvation
And with Your grace, our hearts are sealed
Lord, with Your tears of love, You bathed our sorrows
In Your eyes we stand revealed

Without His tears, there is no comfort
Without His death, there is no life
Without His blood, there is no pardon
Without His cross, there is no crown

Found this version online. I liked the English lyrics a lot and was touched by the song.
But it is the lyrics that speak of the truth and how beautiful the song is.

life..

now, It's really bored to stay home during holidays, even though there's school.
Last semester, and last year in poly after this coming holiday.
How time past quickly, the way it comes and the way it goes.
While I'm counting down to the day of my graduation,
I kept on wondering what am I going do after i graduate.
Continue to further studies or just work first.
I need to seriously consider these things.

Plus I need to work on my "don't dare" character or just get out of my comfort zone,
just feel that its a need to get rid of that or else I can never move on.

Oh ya, I feel like changing my blog template again.
Seriously, this is what I do when I get bored. HAHA.

:(

hmm, I was supposed to be happy.
ehh, last week, went night safari with friends and was quite happy! HAHHA.
But I missed WH but she was sick, so well, we shall go somewhere next time!

okay. about today. I broke record of missing things.
Today, I lost my phone AGAIN and ezlink card on bus.
And I cried really hard. Don't know why but that's it.

I can count them from my memory.
Like wallet,keys,phone,books and ezlink card.

ermm,
I want to go the dead sea scroll arts exhibition!
And I also want to watch final destination 4 in 3d.
HAHHA. :D